There was a time---before the pandemic---when I tried to
balance out the themes of my blog posts. By that I mean I’d alternate what I
called arty-farty or deep thoughts themes with sentimental journeys down Memory
Lane or play-by-play accounts of my daily routines. Every so often I’d throw in
my attempt at writing humor or a current events post because sometimes that elephant in the room is too big to
ignore. Before the pandemic I also routinely wrote movie and book reviews and
reports on the lectures and travel club presentations I attended, none of which
are back on anyone’s calendar since large gatherings still aren’t allowed in my
state. Then there’s the dog’s antics that are always good for a paragraph or
two. Pity parties, insecurities, widowhood issues, outings with friends and conversations
in my head have all made the pages of my blog. And for a while I was obsessed
with filling up my biweekly word count with my adventures and missteps in the
world of downsizing and e-Baying. Expect a few more downsizing posts
because---well, just because moving related issues will still be a major focus in my life for the 6-7 months.
I truly miss the things I can’t write about right now because that
outside stimulus isn't there to inspire me or anyone else living in Pandemic
Park.
“We worry about
tomorrow like it’s promised.”
— Anonymous
But what I miss the most is human contact, feeling part of a
herd of people all joined together because we had a common interest---if only
for an hour or two---in the same subject matter. If the pandemic has taught me
anything it’s taught me that I didn’t value causal interactions with others nearly
high enough. I need them to feed my soul and hunger for gathering blogger's
fodder. It’s also taught me that most humans want to be part of a herd whether
it's the selfish vs the selfless, the wise vs the foolish or the kumbaya crowd
who just wants to have a unified society vs the arm-chair warriors who want to
fight about everything. And oh how I wish I still had my illusions back regarding how I used to
believe most people were smart enough to believe the science and logic coming
out of world health organizations over the P.T. Barnum---“there's a sucker born
every minute”---in the White House.
“Each day I have to make a new promise to
myself.
To be braver than
my past.
To be stronger
than my struggle....”
— Chrissie Pinney
I've always known the entire universe is made up of polar
opposite energy forces pushing against one another, every particle in space,
every human action and emotion. But for just one week, just one day I wish it
wasn’t so much work to keep the energy force centered and inching ever so
slowly in a positive direction---if in fact historians a hundred years from now
will look back and view our current decade as a turning point toward a higher
plane of existence. We’ve already had a super-sized, mind-altering turbulent decade in
my lifetime. Maybe we only get one of those per lifetime,
counted out like candy to greedy children? I hope not. I hope everything we’ve
been going through with the World-Wide Pandemic, the Black Lives Matter, Save the Planet and the Me Too
Movement turns out to be more than just minor bumps on the timeline of world
history. And I sincerely hope Mother Nature is finally getting our attention with her bitch-slapping us with massive forest fires, floods and hurricanes. She needs our help, people!
“I promise you,
these storms are only trying to wash you clean.”
— Jessica Katoff
Writing and reading blog posts during a pandemic takes more
effort, does it. There are more deep thought posts, more expressions of
frustration... and gratitude for the small things we still can enjoy. There are far more political and current events posts, more
comparing pandemic experiences across the blog community. Less fluffy, silly
stuff. It’s nearly impossible to know how to strike a balance of topics so that
we bloggers don’t turn off those who have read us in the past and expect a
certain level of whatever we were known to deliver before the pandemic took all
those implied promises away. All I can say is that writing blogs is my
lifeline. It makes me feel like I’m part of that yin/yang of opposing herds
thingie I mentioned up above. All this windup is me trying to say that I can’t always make you laugh. I can’t always
make you cry, but I can promise to always show you what’s on my mind. ©
“I don’t have much
to offer, but I promise you can have the best of me.”
— Anonymous
