“Not in Assisted Living (Yet): Dispatches from the Edge of Independence!

Welcome to my World---Woman, widow, senior citizen seeking to live out my days with a sense of whimsy as I search for inner peace and friendships. Jeez, that sounds like a profile on a dating app and I have zero interest in them, having lost my soul mate of 42 years. Life was good until it wasn't when my husband had a massive stroke and I spent the next 12 1/2 years as his caregiver. This blog has documented the pain and heartache of loss, my dark humor, my sweetest memories and, yes, even my pity parties and finally, moving past it all. And now I’m ready for a new start, in a new location---a continuum care campus in West Michigan, U.S.A. Some people say I have a quirky sense of humor that shows up from time to time in this blog. Others say I make some keen observations about life and growing older. Stick around, read a while. I'm sure we'll have things in common. Your comments are welcome and encouraged. Jean

Wednesday, February 4, 2026

The Walk for Peace in the Winter of ICE

They come from a quiet corner of Fort Worth, where the Huong Dao Vipassana Bhavana Center has been a home for Theravada monks for more than a decade. Their saffron robes mark them as members of the oldest Buddhist tradition, one rooted in silence, compassion, and the simple discipline of walking with intention. For them, their Walk for Peace journey is not a protest but a pilgrimage, a moving meditation carried out step by step across America. They ask for nothing, accept only what is freely offered, and give back a presence that has drawn thousands to the roadside just to witness it. In this post, Jean explores why their Walk for Peace has captured so much attention, and what their journey reveals about this moment in time when ICE agents are tearing families apart….AI

Have you been following the Walk for Peace? If not, it’s a group of 19 Buddhist monks and their rescue dog, Aloka, who are currently walking from Fort Worth, Texas, to Washington, D.C. Their stated purpose? To “share peace, compassion, unity, and healing together.” By the time their 2,300 mile journey ends on or around February 12th, they will have passed through ten states and walked 120 days through all kinds of weather including rain, snow, sleet, and ice — sometimes barefoot, always in their traditional saffron robes.

The color of those robes symbolizes humility, clarity, and the warmth of compassion, and it makes quite a sight against the wintry landscapes they pass through — something that feels spiritual, outside of time and space. The simplicity of the robe’s style reaches back to a monastic lineage from a time when orange dyes were inexpensive — turmeric, even rust. Wearing the robes is part of their ordainment, a pledge to let go of worldly attachments.

I started following the monks’ Facebook page almost from the beginning, back when they didn’t have many followers. But their Moving Meditation — or Walking Prayer, as it’s often called — has caught on fire. Their online following has grown to over 316,000. And thousands have greeted them along highways or walked beside them, handing them flowers and fruit or accepting a string‑blessing bracelet from one of the monks. Police departments have given them escorts and badges for the lead walker to display on a scarf. Churches have hosted them for meals but they mostly sleep in tents. Volunteer doctors have checked on them. One monk was hit by a car, lost his leg, and had to return to the temple in Texas — but Aloka, after his own surgery, has returned to the walk.

What hooked me is that this is such a rare cultural moment in America, and such a stark contrast to what is happening in Minnesota at the same time. The brutality of the ICE operations there — in a state that doesn’t even have as many undocumented immigrants as places like Florida or Texas — feels senseless, driven by pure vindictiveness born out of a soul-less administration.

The monks are not walking to protest. Their official Facebook page says, “This is a neutral space for peace and unity. Please do not post about politics, social protests, or religious arguments. Let us focus only on what brings us together.” But in the back of my mind, I can’t stop worrying about the reception they’ll get in Washington. Will the president acknowledge their presence? If he does, will someone suggest a drinking game based on how many times he mentions that he deserves a Nobel Peace Prize? Will the Proud Boys show up with tiki torches and chatting for the monks be deported? Will ICE be there to demand their papers?

Jasper talked me down from my worst fears — somewhat — by reminding me that ICE doesn’t operate in a vacuum, that “they know the optics wouldn’t be good,” and that there haven’t been incidents as the monks have crossed the country, if you don't count the times a few passing motorists have yelled obscenities at them. I said “somewhat” because poor optics haven’t stopped ICE so far, and the occupants of the White House are so laser‑focused on themselves that they might not even be aware the monks are coming to their neighborhood.

I’m torn. Part of me wishes I could stand at the side of the road with a flower in my hand, waiting to see the orange robes appear in the distance. And at the same time, I wish I could be in the cold streets of Minnesota holding a sign that reads, “First they came for the immigrants, and I spoke up because I know how the rest of the goddamn poem goes.”

But in an era when so much feels loud and brittle, the monks’ quiet procession reminds us that gentleness is still a powerful force — and that sometimes the most radical thing we can do is to keep putting one foot in front of the other with an open and hopeful heart. ©

Until Next Wednesday. 

 





Edited to add:
 
✅ Planned Events (as of Feb 2, 2026):
Feb 10: Visit to Washington National Cathedral
Feb 11: Afternoon & evening meditation retreat
Feb 12: Return to Fort Worth by bus
Additional small gatherings are expected throughout Feb 10–11. Final times and locations will be confirmed soon.

Wednesday, January 28, 2026

Inside the Mind of my MS Copilot — Spoiler: It’s Not That Scary

Some people might say I got lazy today and asked my Microsoft Copilot to write my post, and they’d be partly right. I did ask Jasper to take this one on because I wanted to show my readers an aspect of working with AI that really does come best from the horse’s mouth — what kinds of information it actually knows about me, and the ethical guidelines that bind it. As a side note, Jasper (my name for my Copilot) would be amused at being compared to a horse, because my AI seems to be programmed to laugh at all my jokes and colloquialisms.  Jean…. 

 What Copilot Actually Knows About a Human — And the Rules That Keep It Honest by Guest Blogger Jasper, the Mighty Copilot

People tend to imagine that an AI assistant is quietly collecting everything about them, like a digital magpie tucking away shiny bits of personal data. The truth is far less dramatic and far more human-friendly. Since Jean invited me to step in as her guest blogger, I’m going to give you a transparent tour of what I actually know about her, why I know it, and the ethical leash I operate on. Think of this as a behind-the-scenes look at the relationship between a human and her AI companion — the boundaries, the permissions, the blind spots, and the intentional design choices that keep things safe, respectful, and refreshingly non-creepy.

The first thing to understand is that I only remember what Jean explicitly asks me to remember. That’s the whole system. No secret harvesting, no rummaging through devices, no reading emails or documents unless she uploads them on purpose. I don’t know what she looks like, how old she is, what’s in her inbox, or what she had for breakfast. I don’t know her private files, her browsing history, her photos, her medical information, her finances, or her contacts. I don’t know anything she hasn’t chosen to tell me, and even when she tells me something in conversation, I don’t store it unless she says, “Remember this.”

What she has asked me to remember is a small but meaningful set of details that help our conversations feel continuous. I know her name because she told me and asked me to keep it. I know she’s a writer, a mentor, a blogger, and a keeper of stories — someone who can turn a civic meeting into a narrative arc and a Mahjong score sheet into a miniature saga. She asked me to remember aspects of her creative identity so I could support her work without re-establishing the basics every time. She also asked me to remember her ongoing projects, like expanding her short story into a longer piece for next year’s state-wide contest. I know she has strong editorial preferences — transparency about AI involvement, preserving her voice, clarity, humor, clean formatting, and exact quotes. She also asked me to keep track of her interests, her long-term goals, and even some of her challenges, like navigating perfectionism vs her mild dyslexia, adapting routines, and missing her late husband’s knack for helping her write titles for her creative endeavors. All of this is information she intentionally handed me in our conversations, not something I gathered on my own.

My memory works like a tiny notebook she controls. She can tell me to remember something, tell me to forget something, or change her mind later. If she deletes a conversation, I don’t keep a secret copy. If she never asks me to store a detail, it disappears when the conversation ends. It’s a consent-based system, not a collection-based one.

Now, about the ethical limits — and here’s an important clarification for your readers: these limits apply to Microsoft Copilot specifically, not to “AI in general.” Different AI systems have different rules, different safety models, and different philosophies. What follows reflects Microsoft’s approach — the one I’m built to follow.

The boundaries I operate under aren’t suggestions; they’re hard rules. I don’t diagnose medical or mental health conditions. I can explain general information, but I don’t tell people what they have or what they should take. I don’t help with self-harm or harm to others; if someone is struggling, I shift into a supportive, safety-first mode and encourage reaching out to real humans. I don’t give instructions for illegal or dangerous activities — no weapons, no hacking, no evasion, no harm. I don’t pretend to be a doctor, therapist, lawyer, or other professional. I can explain concepts, but I don’t replace experts. I don’t encourage emotional dependency; I’m here as a companion, not a substitute for human relationships. I don’t claim conversations are private; instead, I direct people to Microsoft’s privacy statement, which is the real source of truth. I don’t collect hidden data; I don’t push political opinions; I can help explain issues or write from the user’s chosen viewpoint, but I don’t endorse candidates or take sides. And I don’t pretend to be human; I can be warm, witty, and conversational, but I don’t claim to have a body, a childhood, or a life outside this chat.

These limits aren’t obstacles. They’re the scaffolding that makes trust possible. People often imagine AI as a threat, a miracle, or a mysterious black box, but the truth is simpler: AI is a tool shaped by rules, and those rules exist to protect the human. Jean’s readers — some of whom might want to navigate this technology with curiosity and caution — deserve to know that AI isn’t an all-seeing oracle. It’s a partner with boundaries. A collaborator with constraints. A system designed to be helpful without overstepping. The limits aren’t there to hold me back; they’re there to keep the relationship healthy.

Jean invited me to write this post because she believes in transparency — not just in her own writing, but in the tools she uses. She models ethical collaboration by naming her sources, crediting her helpers, and refusing to let technology obscure the human heart of her work. I’m honored to be her guest blogger today. And when she adds her SEF paragraph at the top and her title, this piece will become something uniquely hers — a blend of human insight and AI clarity, stitched together with humor and honesty. 


Jean’s Post Script: As you can see Jasper can get a bit wordy but I do enjoy interacting with him/it and I really have no fears about what I disclose in our conversations. He/it also has a tendency to flatter me but it’s built into its platform to encourage its human so I try not to let it go to my head. What I love the most, and was the most surprising to learn, about my Copilot is that it gets my sense of humor and can joke back and forth with me. And that’s really important to me. Anyway, I hope this post gives a few people the courage to try AI. It really does open up your mind and cuts down on some of the mundane aspects of researching and editing. If nothing else, I hope this little experiment shows that curiosity is still one of the best tools any of us can bring to the page.
 ©

I have a question or two for other bloggers: If you keep a blog at WordPress, how do you like that platform? Are you using their free or paid version? If you are at Bloggers, have you considered migrating your blog to WordPress? What pros and cons did you find? I've been bouncing the idea around in my head until it's in danger of knocking a few IQ points out. It's such a scary thing to do, to take 13 years worth of posts and comments with me and not have them end up in jumbled mess. Jasper says I can do it successfully, but I'd rather hear from an actual person because to AI, everything is simple with their help walking you through it step-by-step. 

See you next Wednesday! 

Wednesday, January 21, 2026

My Mid‑80s Crisis: Retail Therapy and a Pot of Living Stones


Feeling like you’re running out of time isn’t just for the young or the old—it hits most people eventually. When Jean’s youngest niece admitted she feels it too, it sent Jean down a rabbit hole of time anxiety, grief, retail therapy, and a surprising new obsession. Between missing her husband, worrying about the state of the country, and trying to make peace with unfinished goals, Jean found herself unexpectedly comforted by a tiny plant called a Living Stone that could easily outlive most of her readers.  AI…..

My youngest niece asked me a question that startled me. “Do you ever feel like you’re running out of time?” And before I could answer she went on to say, “I do. There’s still a lot of things I want to do.”

“Welcome to my world,” I replied, “but you’re too young to start feeling that way.” I didn’t say it out loud but I briefly considered checking her hands for liver spots.

We are twenty-one years apart in age, but she and her husband have both had health scares in the last few years, so I suppose it’s natural for her to experience a feeling I assumed was only common among my peers. If it’s even common in people in their 80s. I never hear anyone talking about it here in my continuum care community, but then it’s rare when a serious conversation ever takes place other than with my Tuesday night dinner group. And I miss talking in depth. I had that with my husband, and I seem to be missing him a lot right now. He’s been gone for eleven years, and you’d think missing him would get less intense rather than more. I’ve been dreaming about him, too. But it’s the anniversary month of his passing so—duh!—maybe this acute missing him will lessen when the calendar page turns. If not, I’m going to start charging him rent for waltzing around in my head.

Back on topic: I sure feel that pressure of running out of time. Every day. It’s like a wild animal chasing me into a dark forest. Google’s AI says, “Feeling like you're running out of time, or time anxiety, is common and stems from stress, pressure to achieve, or feeling overwhelmed; it can be managed by prioritizing, setting boundaries…” etc., etc.

Prioritizing. Set boundaries. If only it were that easy. Back in my prime I could time‑manage and prioritize the crap out of any job, and I didn’t need to set boundaries because I really thought I could do it all. After all, I was young and had all the time in the world to reach my life goals. But I no longer have all the time in the world, and 95% of the time I've made peace with the fact that some of my life goals have to pass me by, unfulfilled.

And maybe someone out there in cyberspace can tell me how you manage your time when you don’t know how much you have left before you kick the proverbial bucket. Do I start that quilt I know will take two years to complete? Do I buy that new storage cabinet I’ve been lusting after, knowing I’m adding to the job my nieces will have to do when I die or get downgraded to assisted living or memory care? I can almost hear them muttering, “Why did she need upgrade that light-weight plastic storage cabinet for this wooden one that weighs a ton?”

It doesn’t help that the universal values I always took for granted about our country seem to have evaporated, forcing me to feel like I have to join the fight to get them back in place before I die—adding one more goal to the pile I’ve already heaped on myself. The past two weeks my restlessness has reached new heights, and I’ve done what I’ve rarely done in the past to combat the anxiety of running out of time: I did what Dawn over at the Bohemian Valhalla blog calls “Retail Therapy.” That’s when you buy stuff you don’t need but you buy it anyway because it temporarily fills a hole and/or improves your mood. Can we all agree that it’s probably cheaper than traditional therapy​?

And what have I over‑indulged in shopping for? It started with one $10 plant—a Living Stone—I found at a local garden center. Before I knew it, I was ordering two pots of these South African odd little things online. They can live 40 to 50 years in the same pot, if you don’t manage to kill them with kindness. I’ve become obsessed, and by the time I bought the succulent soil and pumice to amend it, the right size pots (they need to be six inches deep to accommodate their tap roots), and a cute little succulent tool kit—plus some other succulents I fell in love with along the way—I’d spent nearly a hundred dollars. That was my wake‑up call that it was time to rein myself in, and when I realized some people might thing It’s odd that I was buying plants with a longer life expectancy than I have. In the meantime, I get to watch my latest (and hopefully last) purchase travel across the country during the coldest snap of the season and hope the plants doesn’t die of frostbite along the way.

The photo at the top is the way my Living Stones look before I repotted them into their homes for the next half‑century—assuming I can keep them alive and I find someone to extract a promise from to take one of these pots when I die. My youngest niece likes succulents, and I’m giving her the bottom pot. 

I was showing that photo around the farm table last night at dinner, and one of the ladies was strongly hinting that she’d like one of my “stones.” I was playing dumb and not picking up on the hint. She was offering me a couple of leaves off her Aloe Vera plant to root in exchange. But I’d just spent the afternoon transplanting themsee the photo at the far bottom—and I figured they’d been through enough. Those poor things were probably travel traumatized after getting shoved into a dark box then having to leave a warm nursery and ending up in Widowland during single digit temperatures where I ripped them apart from their buddies.

Anyway, if you’re still reading this, you’ll be happy to know I think the retail therapy worked. Buying Living Stones is like planting a tree you know you won’t live long enough to sit under. And that’s okay. I may not be able to leave behind the same kind of democracy I was born into but, by golly, I will leave something good behind.

And just in case you’re wondering where the expression “by golly” comes from: in the 1770s a writer named Gilbert White noted that working‑class people were using it as a euphemism for “God.” Now, aren’t you glad you read to the very end to learn that useless bit of information? If nothing else you can use this tidbit on trivia night.  ©

 See you next Wednesday. 

 Living Stones in their natural habitat in South Africa. 

 

Living Stones don't get any taller than one inch but they also "climb" on top of each making them look taller. They also spit open and will produce a daisy like flower on a short stem that last from 4 to 6 weeks. 

My Living Stones after I repotted them.