My Gathering Girls group--seven of us who spun out selves
off from an official, monthly event down at the senior hall for people looking
for friends---has been meeting twice a month for brunch since last May. And
occasionally we’ve gotten together to do other things around the community. I
was worried we wouldn’t hold together over the winter because the weather here
in Michigan puts a kink in everything we do and, sadly, our ages are also
playing into the equation. One of our ladies has breathing issues and is resisting
going on oxygen, another has back issues so these two often bow out of going
places that requires a little walking. Another in our group is starting dialysis
and doesn’t know how that’s going to affect her free-to-gather time and we have
another who just this week joined the Widows’ World where the rest of us have
been living for a long time.
The ladies mentioned above are on average ten years older
than the three of us not mentioned. Once this winter it was just we ‘youngsters’
who showed up for brunch. And someone commented that our absence friends are a cautionary
tale telling us that we need to keep moving, keep having fun together for as
long as we can because when we see what they are going through with heath
issues we are looking at ourselves in ten years. And since dark humor is often
served at our brunches we joked about having to go back to the senior hall to
troll for more friends to entice into our group if it gets too small. That led
to a discussion about how friends come and go through-out our lives for various
reasons---some moving on literally, other moving on metaphorically as we grow in
different directions. “All our lives we’ve had to keep making new friends,” someone said. And that’s never easy to do whether in grade
school or at the senior hall.
I’ve been lucky that I’ve had two best friends in my life.
One I met in kindergarten and we were best friends until she got married after
college and moved out of state, but over the years we’ve stayed in touch first
through letters and now with email. I must say, though, at one time I resented
her husband for taking her away from me. I missed having a best friend in my
life until Don came along and took on that role. Now, looking back I wonder if N.B.
and I had lived in the same city all this time how that might have affected our
relationships with our husbands. We taught each other how to be best friends
and we transferred what we learned to being best friends with our spouses.
Correct me if I’m wrong but I don’t think it’s possible to have two best
friends at the same time. And a spouse will usually (and rightly so) come first
because you’re building a family and life together. I say “usually” because I’ve
known a few women who have giggled, cried, plotted, and passed more secrets back
and forth with their girlfriends than with their spouses. I’m guessing their
marriages weren’t all they could have been because, in my book, spouses who are best
friends have the best marriages. Still, no one can be everything to another
person so I may be wrong about the ability of people to maintain two best
friends at the same time. Oh, I’m so confused! The only thing I know for sure is
I ignored the whole issues of maintaining a circle of friends until the
loneliness of widowhood drove me to face the fact that I screwed up in
thinking I’d never need more than Don. Oops.
The word ‘friend’ is hard to define without an adjective,
isn’t it. We pigeonhole friendships. We have casual friends, work friends, fair
weather friends, cyber friends, church friends, common interest friends, family
friends, close friends and best friends but what is a friend really? A best
friend is easiest to define: it’s a connection that binds our spirits together,
an unbreakable trust that we can be ourselves around that person, no matter if
our moods are joyful or pitiful. Best friends can talk about anything and trust
one another not to past on anything personal or told in confidence. They know
where all our bones are buried, know our strengths and weaknesses and they only
use that knowledge to help us be the best version of ourselves.
Monday was my Gathering Girls First Mondays Brunch and only
four of the seven of us attended. That makes me so nervous! I don’t want our
circle of budding friendships to break up or get smaller before we even get to
our first anniversary. And the TED TALK below with life-long friends Jane Fonda
and Lily Tomlin on the nature of female friendship inspires me to keep trying
to building our sisterhood group. Their humor, like that of my Gathering Girls,
comes together like peanut butter and jelly---so natural and easy---and I don’t
want to lose that! O. Henry said, "No friendship is an accident” which is
probably another way of saying, we have to work at maintaining our friendships.
Okay, that’s my summer marching orders. Again. It was the same last summer and
look what I’ve gained in the trying...and how much more I can gain if I keep on trying! ©
