Perhaps you’ve heard of the book, The Priority List by
David Menasche. Perhaps not. The author was a teacher who ended up with brain
cancer and after six years of treatment and declining health he set off on a
101 day trip across the country to see how the lives of some of his students
had turned out. Facebook, like it does in so many modern-day scenarios, played
into the plan because it was through Facebook that the money was raised for the
trip, places to stay in peoples’ homes along the way were arranged and meet-ups
at various stops were set up with former students. I didn’t mean to read this
book. I bought it as a belated retirement gift for my niece---she was a special
ed. teacher for 20 years and a reading teacher for ten---but when I got ready
to gift-wrap the book I made the mistake of leafing through it. I was hooked. Very
carefully I read it such a way that I didn’t crease the binding or leave any
other tell-tale signs that the hardcover was opened and read. That was hard to do
because I’m used to marking passages I want to re-read.
Being an English and literature teacher it was no surprise
that the author filled The Priority List
with a lot of memorable quotes from books that inspired him. One of my favorites
was written by actor and rapper Tupac Shakur and it goes like this: "You can
spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation;
trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've
happened... or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck
on.” Oh, gosh, haven’t we all had experiences in life where we did the
former---over-analyzed---and wished we could have done the latter---just walked
away and not look back? Widows and recently disabled people, especially, spend too much time with those
could’a, should’a and would’a trains of thought before we’re ready to
acknowledge the futilely of putting ourselves through all that over-thinking of
things we can’t change. I always thought it was part of the healing process but
maybe it’s just a more refined form of woo-is-me at work? Feeling sorry for yourselves is never a good game plan to get us from point A to point B. Write that down, it's important.
Back to the book. The title comes from an exercise Mr.
Menasche would give to all his new classes at the beginning of the semester. It
involved a list of 26 words that each high schooler was supposed to put in
order of their importance in his or her life. He encouraged them to keep their lists because, he said, “Life changes and so do our priorities.” It’s not any
easy challenge and if you want to try the exercise these are the words you’ll
need to use: Acceptance, adventure, artistic expression, career, education, family
friendship, fun, health, honor, independence, love, marriage, possessions,
power, privacy, respect, security, sex, shelter, spirituality, style, technology,
travel, victory and wealth. My top five in no particular order---yes, that’s
cheating---are: acceptance, artistic expression, health, independence and security.
In my second set of five I placed family, friendship, fun, honor and love. I’ll
bet you’re surprised that those two sets aren’t reversed. All I can say is try
the exercise. It’s not that easy.
But I’ll explain…. I picked acceptance because I still
struggle with accepting the changes that widowhood brought into my life and a new found awareness of
my own impending mortality that came with my singlehood. And, of course health,
independence and security all tie into that basic fear of accepting that one
day as I age I might lose those three things. Artistic expression has always
been high on my list of things to value. Writing, the arts/crafts and the way
my house is decorated is important to me. Even the way I made my living for 20
years was closely tied to the arts. It’s the outward expression of who I am
inside. Balance, harmony and free expression, whether in written form or made
with artists tools, matters to me.
The words I’d place in my third set of five are: education,
respect, shelter, spirituality and style. In my fourth set of priorities are
adventure, possessions, technology, victory and wealth. And bringing up the
rear would be career, marriage, power, privacy, sex and travel. Now that I have my
priorities grouped into sets I’ll have to go back to prioritize them within
each group before I can say I’ve completed the exercise. It’s both easy to see
and sad at the same time to recognize that words like ‘marriage’ and ‘love’ can
slide from the top to the bottom of the list when you no longer have a partner
in your life. But what goes down can come back up. Life is still an adventure in
its unpredictability, isn’t it.
Mr. Menasche, near the end of the book, talks about how he wished
he’d included the word ‘strength’ in his original list of words to prioritize
and now living with a brain tumor he would place ‘strength’ at the top of his
list. When he was younger, he said, he confused power and strength but has
learned there are differences between the two. “Power is the ability to effect
change,“ he wrote, “…but strength is endurance.” In his case, he wants the
strength to face what life has in store for him as he continues to live on
borrowed time.
I hope my niece likes the book. I did. We should all be able to write a book near the end of our time on earth that spells out what truly matters and mattered in our lives. His Vision Quest was inspiring. ©
