This post explores the lingering impact of the Vietnam War through personal memory, cultural reflection, and historical context. From Bruce Springsteen’s protest anthem to Ron Kovic’s memoir and the Vietnam Veterans Memorial, Jean revisits the emotional terrain of a generation shaped by conflict. With fresh reflections sparked by recent books and films, she connects past and present—reminding us that war doesn’t end when the fighting stops. AI...
“Records are often auditory Rorschach tests,” Bruce Springsteen wrote in his memoir. “We hear what we want to hear.” His song Born in the U.S.A.—often mistaken for a patriotic anthem—was actually written as a Vietnam protest song. Springsteen’s interest in veterans affairs and this song were inspired by Ron Kovic’s memoir Born on the Fourth of July, the story of a paralyzed veteran turned anti-war activist. That autobiography was published in 1976 and it became a best-seller. Fate brought these two men together shortly after and they became life long friends.
The 1989 film adaptation of the book, starring Tom Cruise, took some creative liberties—adding a high school girlfriend, placing Kovic at a protest he only watched on TV, and dramatizing a visit to the family of a fellow soldier he accidentally killed (in real life, he wrote them a letter). But overall, the movie stayed true to the spirit of Kovic’s account.
According to Wikipedia, Ron wrote the book in three weeks and two days. He described the process like this:
“I wrote all night long, seven days a week, single space, no paragraphs, front and back of the pages, pounding the keys so hard the tips of my fingers would hurt. I couldn't stop writing, and I remember feeling more alive than I had ever felt. Convinced that I was destined to die young, I struggled to leave something of meaning behind, to rise above the darkness and despair. I wanted people to understand. I wanted to share with them as nakedly and openly and intimately as possible what I had gone through, what I had endured. I wanted them to know what it really meant to be in a war — to be shot and wounded, to be fighting for my life on the intensive care ward — not the myth we had grown up believing. I wanted people to know about the hospitals and the enema room, about why I had become opposed to the war, why I had grown more and more committed to peace and nonviolence.”
Netflix was showing Born on the Fourth of July recently, and knowing it was a classic Vietnam film, I decided to watch. I couldn’t remember seeing it before, but I had read the book. Back in the late ’70s I read around twenty books about the war—memoirs and fiction by recent veterans like Ron. I was obsessed, trying to understand how we, as a nation—and I, personally—could go from naive supporter of the “conflict” to understanding why so many of us turned against it.
I thought I’d long ago made peace with that terrible chapter of American history. But seeing that movie on the heels of reading Kristin Hannah’s book The Women (about the U.S. Army Nurse Corp during the Vietnam War) a bunch of memories surfaced. Like the night Don and I tried to talk a friend of his nephew out of running off to Canada because his draft number was close to being called. Right or wrong, we didn’t succeed and he became a draft dodger. No matter what choice those teen boys made it was life altering. It wasn’t until 1977 when drafter dodgers were pardoned by Jimmy Carter, in an attempt to heal the nation, that those who fled could come back to The States.
We visited the Vietnam Wall Memorial twice—once in Washington, D.C., shortly after it was built in 1982 and again a decade later when its traveling replica came to town. Our local newspaper called the replica ‘The Wall That Heals.’ It was 250 foot long, ½ scale replica of the Vietnam Veterans Memorial Wall on the National Mall and its 24 panels contain more than 58,000 names of those who didn’t make it home. When we saw the actual Wall in Washington D.C. it was an emotional experience for me. I had penpal relationships with over fifty servicemen over in ‘Nam spread out over four-five years and I planned to look them all up in the index book by the Wall, but after finding a few listed I just couldn’t continue.
When we saw the traveling replica it was my husband who was left haunted by the experience. As I pushed Don’s wheelchair past the 24th panel there was a homemade sign on a stake that contained the name of a work friend of Don's. It said he’d died of Agent Orange. This was in the ‘90s, just after our government finally got around to acknowledging the connection between Agent Orange and all the medical problems the guys who were exposed to those chemicals suffered. My husband’s friend had taken his own life just weeks before his wife placed that hand-painted sign at the replica Wall. The war hadn’t ended for him. It just changed shape.
During my caregiving years (2000–2012), war played in our living room every night in the form of VHS tapes of M*A*S*H. When the series originally aired (1972–1983), Don was working nights and never saw it. But he had the entire series on tape and watched the episodes repeatedly. The whoop-whoop of helicopter blades and Alan Alda’s voice gave him the comfort of ritual while I was in the kitchen becoming a blogger.
I don’t entirely understand why we humans find comfort in watching the same shows over and over again, but I do it now with Sex and the City. Watching an episode after a movie each night acts like a palate cleanser for my brain. I’ve probably seen the entire series a dozen times.
And now I need that palate cleanser after watching the nightly news. With two wars raging and a president I don’t trust holding the reins, I’m angry again—angry that humanity remains so divided that we risk blowing up the whole kit and caboodle. Did Vietnam not teach us anything? I know what 45/47 wants out of one of those wars. He wants to develop the Gaza Strip into a high-rollers resort. And with Netanyahu’s latest plan to take over the area and relocate its people, it sounds suspiciously like an off-the-books deal is brewing. If so, it better not involve our tax dollars! If we can’t fund USAID to support the poorest people in the world then we sure as hell can’t fund billionaires on vacation!
My mother used to say, “Don’t borrow trouble from the future.” How she could say that so often—when she was the longest-range planner I’ve ever known—is beyond me. Maybe that’s the answer. She didn’t borrow trouble. She saw its potential and planned contingencies.
Anyone want to help me dig an underground fallout shelter? ©
Until Next Wednesday.
I saw the wall in Washington, DC years ago. It was a profound experience.
ReplyDeleteIt really was, wasn't it. And there was so much controversy over its concept before it was built.
DeleteI read your blog every week, and this one really hit home for me. Your sentence "Did Vietnam not teach us anything?" is a thought that goes through my mind so often. Unfortunately it's our generation that felt the pain of losing loved ones in that war, the protests, the impact of the Kent State murders, etc.
ReplyDeleteMy late husband had a low lottery number (49) and really did think about going to Canada because his neighbor died in Vietnam. His mother was a widow with 4 sons, one who enlisted in the Marines without her knowing he did it until he came home from the recruitment office. I remember to this day the pain on her face when he told her. When my husband left for boot camp, my MIL struggled daily with worry about her sons. Fortunately both came home, but their lives were forever changed.
The younger generation has never experienced the pain and suffering of historical situations in the past, but our generation can clearly see exactly what's happening and what our future holds. I pray daily for peace and embrace the knowledge of historians like Heather Cox Richardson, news media we can trust (PBS and Associated Press) and hope for the return of a new administration that has a moral compass and compassion for it's citizens. What a world we live in, and I am grateful for your blog written by a person with common sense and a true understanding of what's happening to our country.
There are quite of few of us who truly understand what's happening in this country but we feel so powerless and it helps to speak up so we know we're not alone. Our Tuesday night Conversation Group dinners (renamed from the Secret Society of Liberal Ladies) has grown from the original seven to 16 last night. We talk about the news and feel better afterward. Some of the group have gone to rallies and we share information on letter writing and phone calling campaigns etc.
DeleteThank you for following my blog. It means a lot to know something about those who come here.
Now that’s a heavy post. I too struggle with the decisions the current resident of the White House throws out there and I fear he will throw us into an unwanted war. He must lay awake at night thinking how he can perplex the citizens of the U.S. as it seems like everyday there is some ridiculous rant coming from him. The Vietnam war was a painful time in our history and the ramifications of that war linger on yet today. I think it haunts many and what they saw, what they did play on in their memories and it’s oh so painful. God bless all those who have and are suffering as we stand behind you. JJ
ReplyDeleteThanks J.J. You know i don't pray but I do welcome someone like you who has a genuine relationship with God to ask for his (or her) help. The world needs all it can get from where ever it can right now.
DeleteWe seem to be in troubled times, just praying another war that could effect us in UK will never happen.
ReplyDeleteI don't get the Russian aggression and why the world has let it go on as long as it has but on the other hand, I could see how the next step could effect the UK. War seems so unnecessary. Countries just need to live within their own borders and don't mess with their neighbors! Why is that too much to ask?
DeleteDid Vietnam not teach us anything?
ReplyDeleteThat hit home for me. Wouldn't it be great if all countries just meddled with their own problems and not be like Kindergarten kids fighting over someone else's toy. "Leaders" (and I use that term lightly) are like bullies these days.
Good topic, Misadventures of Widowhood.
Our government leaders are teaching by example that bullying and meddling is acceptable. And this after years of our schools trying to teach the opposite.
DeleteI hate to nitpick, but M*A*S*H was about the Korean war, not Vietnam. However, that war should have been a warning to us not to get involved in wars where we had no business being there. My high school recently had our 60th reunion and there was a list of classmates who died in the Vietnam conflict shortly after graduation. So sad to see those young lives lost.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right! Thank you. I removed 'Vietnam' and just went with 'war' was in my living room nightly.
DeleteVietnam taught a great deal to many of us. It's only the idiots and egomaniacs who refuse to learn from history. It's painfully obvious that the current administration not only knows absolutely none of history, but feels almighty and above its lessons.
ReplyDeleteThey are the most self-centered and selfish people to ever serve in the White House.
DeleteThis post stirred up all the sorrow I felt for those 58,000 young men and women who died - for absolutely nothing. Just as Ken Burn's documentary on OPB did for me a few years back when I watched it. I was appalled at how much longer that war went on than it needed to; after it was clear guerilla warfare is unwinnable. No. We have learned little from the Vietnam war.
ReplyDeleteI couldn't bring myself to watch that documentary but I'm sure glad he made it. He's the best documentarian of our times.
DeleteMy Dad and The Man Served in Vietnam, so did some of my Cousins, it was harder for them when they returned than when they were there. Our Country was not Kind to the Veterans of that War and have spent Decades now trying to make up for it by Thanking them profusely for their Service and "Welcoming them Home" now. The Man is polite to them, but he remember too well how he was treated when he got back, my Dad too, and my Cousins. As an Old Hippie I didn't have 'support' for any War, not that one, not any one, but I Honor those who have Served, Protected, done whatever their Country asked of them in Military Service. It isn't them that make the Calls... it's our Governments. And Yes, they want Gaza to be a Beach Resort for the Wealthy... and once they rid the area of the Palestinians, any kind of inhumane way that they can, they will do just that. As for Ukraine... well, Putin won't stop there and NATO knows it, this Prez would Sell Out his Country and the entire Globe to line his own Pockets and have more Power, so no telling what "Deals" he's making with Devils that nobody knows about yet?
ReplyDeleteI 100% agree with you. It wasn't right how the Vietnam soldiers were treated when then got home. Most were drafted and didn't have a choice to go and the stories about them being baby killers and killing innocent villagers may have be true but involved a very small number of our soldiers who served over there. The way they were sent home individually, and not us part of a unit that could give each other support was also something our military learned in hindsight was not a good thing either.
DeleteAs for Gaza and Ukraine, also agree with you 100%. It makes me sick the hopeless of those wars ending any time soon.
I have shared my stories of high school during the Viet Nam war with my kids and grandkids, but I don't think they get it. . . I can remember when the newspaper came out with the birthday list and draft numbers. The senior boys (and their girl friends) were holding their breath for a low number, the underclassman would look up their birthdays and think how it could be them if they were a year older. It doesn't sound like much, does it? But it was life or death.
ReplyDeleteI can remember the conversations in the girls groups in study hall. If your boyfriend is drafted, should you get married before he leaves or when he gets home. What if he doesn't come home, is it better to be a widow or to wait to get married (we were rather empty headed). Then the conversation would lead to - should you get married and try to get pregnant so that if he doesn't come home, a part of him would live on. I can remember those conversations when I was a freshman.
I can remember my cousins frantically applying to colleges and my aunts and uncles yelling at them to keep their grades up so they could get deferments. I remember my dumb football player cousin who got a scholarship and flunked out. Luckily someone knew someone who knew someone and he was able to join the Coast Guard.
Then I remember the boys who came home. They were different. They were older (when you looked in their eyes) and rougher somehow. And quieter.
I lived in a small rural town. There were no real war protests or bullying of returning soldiers. But I don't think that made life easier for them.
I was very young. But I knew it was all wrong. Nothing felt right about it.
What is going on now is terrifying.
Interesting comment. Thanks for share it. I was a bit older than you and didn't see the kinds of things you observed during that time frame. But we did hear a lot from teen boys sweating getting a high draft number as my husband's nephew and his friends were always hanging around.
DeleteThis was such an ugly time in the US. We treated those that went terribly when they returned. I remember watching the lottery balls and the draft numbers being picked. I'd take that over the shit we are in now though. We have a demented leader who is in bed with Putin. We are a hot mess. I am praying for a terminal illness or worse.
ReplyDeleteI hear you!
Delete"War, what is it good for? Absolutely nothing!" I remember that song and it still holds true today.
ReplyDeleteI don't read the AI summary at the top of your posts as I just want to see your words, Jean, not some computer summary. Your words have much more meaning.
I don't remember that song at all!
DeleteI get why you feel that way about the AL paragraph at the top but it's driving my view clicks up triple what they were before I added the AL paragraph. Thankfully it's easy enough to skip for those of don't like it.
War by Edwin Starr. I have it on my playlist for my speaker at marches. Actually my entire playlist is Viet Nam protest songs. Who would think we would put ourselves in this horrible situation to use these songs again.
DeleteI love your activism. But I'm so sorry any of us feels the need to protest and make our voice heard again. I just YouTubed 'War' by Edwin Starr and listened. I do remember it now.
DeleteI remember the draft numbers...they looked like a Bingo draw as I recall. And I did look for someone from my small hometown when I visited the Vietnam Memorial in DC. It was so sobering to stand and look at that wall. Maya Lin did an amazing job with the design in making people feel the weight of that war. Dark days.
ReplyDeleteWhen I watched the Ken Burns documentary on Vietnam, I was really struck by the depth of the lies our government was telling us, all the while sending more boys to the wood chipper.
And now here we are again being lied to and -- worse yet -- having our government destroyed from within. I don't know the answer, but these are dark days again. I can only hope there is something left to save by the time this dictator is gone. He looks unhealthy, but I honestly think Vance is probably worse. He's younger and smarter, if just as evil. And I cannot see why Russia is somehow allowed to run roughshod. GAH.
I remember them looking like Bingo numbers in a basket too, and they televised the drawings.
DeleteI agree about Vance. Not only that, when a VP takes over mid term he's more likely to get re-elected to 'finish' the job than if he does a full four years as VP.
I feel you. We grew up with nightly visions of the war, then the reprecussions on our soldiers and families, and finally the knowledge that we really didn't want to lose anymore of our young men in a war we didn't win.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure I know what 'winning' a war actually is supposed to look like anymore. With so many lives lost, and so may survivors left behind that are emotionally scarred for life if not physically scarred as well.
DeleteAmazing post. I remember the lottery drawing all too well, and my boyfriend got a very bad number, although in the end he was deferred with a good college record. It was all very traumatic for us high school kids, and a boy who sat (alphabetically) in front of me in many classes dropped out of high school and enlisted. He was killed almost immediately, the first casualty of that war in our county. A comment above reminded me of those very same conversations, with girls trying to figure out how to respond if their boyfriend went to war. As for re-watching things, I had never seen The Best Years of our Lives, widely praised as a great movie about war's impact, but now it is shown on my Roku all the time and I seem to be captivated with it, dropping whatever I am doing to watch it again. One of my favorite memories is of my then 14-year old skinny nephew singing "War, what is it good for" trying to imitate a gravelly voice.
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Thanks for the comment. Now I have another movie added to my must see list.
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